Are we allowed to dream big?

I've learned a lot about myself lately, and I'm thankful for that. Many of the things that have been said about me have been true, but the one thing I don't buy was when my ex said to me that my dreams are too highfly. How can you even say that to a person? Not one people I've talked to agreed to this, they said without your dreams you are nothing.

So I dream of a Ferrari - that's my number one dream I want to achieve in life. To have kids I don't even count as a dream, they are a quite obvious part of my life when I'm older, a life without your own children is in my opinion not a complete life.

I also dream of a wealthy life. Don't get me wrong, I don't need millions, but enough to do the things I want to do in life. I can't see myself settling for a life in a suburb near Helsinki with a man, 3 kids and a boring job, I really don't. But that's my choice, and it has nothing to do with me not being humble, it's just not what I want from the one single life I have if I can choose how to live it. I want to experience, and I want to see and do things that take my breathe away.

One day I would like to have an apartment, or a house, abroad. A place to go to whenever you feel to. Maybe I'll move abroad one day, or maybe I'll just have a holiday place somewhere, but your home is where your heart is and mine will follow me wherever I decide to go. Don't see anything wrong with this dream.

If I didn't dream of anything more than the basic things most people feel is enough for them (a house, a family, to get their loan paid off and one day own their house etc), I would probably never achieve anything else either; "Nothing happens unless first we dream".

But to know what you want and to work yourself through life with those things in your mind, is that such a huge sin? It doesn't affect your sense of reality, you know that the Ferrari won't be standing outside your door one day unless you get it there yourself. You know you have to work to get or achieve the things you dream of - but you don't have to expect this to happen when you're 21 and have the whole life in front of you. And even if you die without achieving all of your dreams, at least you had fun dreaming about them. Don't we agree? Never stop dreaming!

So do we have other highfly dreamers out there, I can't be the only one?

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So bored and hungry

We have a double bed with only a small mattress on one side that we share. We have a cozy leather sofa, and a sofa table, and a computer. We do not have a microwave, neither do we have a frying pan, or any dog food. We do miss the TV a lot, sad to admit. This is us for the next 30 days, abandoned in an empty apartment without a personal chef or any male company. SAD.

Satellite Children

Now when I don't have a TV I find myself listening to music all the time. One track that's spinning in my head constantly is Satellite Children by Soulcage. A band I would have never found otherwise (not a genre I would usually be interested in), but the boys from the band gave their CD to me in the bus a few days ago (and I can't even put into words how a kind gesture from a stranger can make your day). I guess you need to have some divorce track, well this is officially mine. Tragical.

The Time We Lost Our Way

A 3 year relationship came to an end. I manage through the days without tears, but in the evening when I sit here in our soon to be past home, with my dog as my only company, I collapse. And I guess it's good to cry, it's healing. My mother keeps telling me that there will be many tears, now and in even in the future when I least expect it. I believe her. 3 years of my life and a bunch of wonderful memories. That's the part that hurts the most, because the memories I have are so extremely beautiful that right now I doubt I will ever find another person to share something similar with. Can you have two soulmates? I really really hope so.



Gentle memories replace our tears
All the love we had is still right here
We hear the songs we found in the time we lost our way

From without words can not describe
What caused the stars to fall deep inside
Every little single memory reminds me of you

Shoe stretching tips?

I already got one tip from another fellow blogger, that actually was a really good tip, just not sure if I can use it on suede shoes as it's water and ice involved? You can anyway read the "Shoe stretching with ice" tutorial here. What method do you use when you stretch your suede shoes? They are leather inside, so should be stretchable with the right method. Then I've read about the wet socks stretching as well, but again there's the water.

Is there any way to do this without water?